all around me

having a coversation with my friend
led to my anger!
"you're just jealous because you aren't the only coolest black girl" -Wan

those words put together,
never enter my mind.
i need someone to talk to about
what i thought. and there it began,
i healing point, i wasn't furious
anymore.
and talking to her, i could say anything,
i wasn't going to tell others which then
they want to put words in your mouth.
at least she understood.
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one thing is i hate when ppl beg.
for some reason, people don't take
me serious. and when i say no,
thats what i actually mean.
and really don't believe in sidekicks,
the last sidekick i had was Kristen.
that didn't last long.
i also don't like when people assume.
thats bullshit, and sorry i'm not gonna spoil
you, i'm not your momma.
i'm not going to be on my hands and knees
for you.